This
is a fictional essay based on a true story about a man, a crisis, and a house filled with life's wisdoms.
"One
day I found myself on the verge of a nervous breakdown. It was not surprising.
I was drowning in work, working for newspapers, writing
several books at the same time, and still, my income became more and
more insecure
all the time. As a result, my physical well-being suffered as well. And if that
wasn't enough I also experienced a crisis in my personal life. In a word: I
thought my life was a total failure. I just wanted to be alone, like
a wounded animal that needs to heal. In this state of mind I rented a little
house at the edge of town. Here I wanted to spend the next period of my life.
Immediately
when I moved in, the house shook me up. The former tenant must have been a
weird guy: He had placed scripts everywhere, like "Look Up, Not
Down", "Keep Your Spirits High", "Cleanse Your Thoughts
Daily".... The most original one was a large hand-painted aphorism in the
hallway: "Leave Your Worries Outside".
Well,
unfortunately,
I was unable to do that. I had a suitcase full of newspaper articles, stories
and novels. The mere looking at them brought me down. There were so many
projects I was carrying around with me in my head. And how was I going to make a
living with my instable income? These were the worries going through my head
all day, and at night I took them to bed with me.
Now
all of a sudden all these aphorisms jumped at me from every corner: "Have
sunshine in your heart, even if your body aches". It reminded me of Coue:
"Day by day, in every way, I am getting better and better." At least I
had some kind of humor left. I therefore decided, at the beginning just
for the sake of humor and then ever more seriously, to try these affirmations,
especially the big one encouraging me to leave my worries outside.
I
tried it. And, surprise, it worked. At the beginning it was difficult and
staggering, but after all with a little effort a person can cultivate any habit,
and I now cultivated this one: I encouraged myself every day to be optimistic
and to leave my worries outside. Meaning: I went to bed in order to sleep and
not in order to ponder over my daily problems. When I went for a walk I did
so in order to relax and not in order to brood over things that happened in the
past. This way I learned more and more to control my thoughts and emotions
and to gradually focus on a new beginning in my life.
From
then on, everything started to move in the right direction, slowly at the
beginning and more and more fast as time went by. My thoughts started getting
more positive every day, as I learned to leave my worries outside. I asked
myself many times: "What is outside, and what is inside?" Inside for
me there was first of all peace, the center, the core of my being, still
influenced by my five senses. Then it became the heart and the thoughts coming
from the heart, and finally it became the soul, the metaphysical and
the divine within me, my vocation. I began to contemplate ever more deeply at my
task in this life and on this planet.
It
then occurred to me that until now I had focused too much on myself, and I began
studying decentralization. I suddenly realized: "We have to build a new
tomorrow from our thoughts instead of making others responsible for the present.
Otherwise we are fighting things that we ourselves created. We should daily
build good causes with the power of our thought for us as well as for
others."
That's
how I started to consider and love my environment and surroundings. I had no
more time for worries, as ever more new possibilities and relations emerged. My
loneliness turned into a dynamic oasis of calm and meditation on me, my
fellowmen and the path of mankind. At this point I learned something new:
The
suffering in this world is caused by to the fact that we are too
preoccupied with ourselves, our troubles and our desires. Happiness stems from
the good thought forms which are formed instinctively with the help of our
emotional bodies. Emotional body - what does this mean? What does it mean for
me? At some point scientists found out that the humans consist of more than only
the visible form of organs, millions of cells, molecules, atoms, etc. That is
when I started studying my body, beginning with the physical, visible form.
At
this point I found out that this physical structure called body in effect is not
a solid mass, but a vehicle hold together by the soul with magnetic force, and
changing with every thought, emotion, and action, and either vibrating at a
higher or lower frequency according to the nature of these thoughts, emotions,
and actions.
I then
began to study the emotional level surrounding the emotional body, where the
emotional thoughts are reflected. Everything we feel is reflected back to us.
From there I continued by studying the mental body also surrounding the visible
form, collecting other thought forms and reflecting our own thought forms. From
this moment of awakening I started watching my own thoughts and cleansing them
daily. That is when I opened up to the higher planes, also called 'God', 'Divine
Presence', 'Divine Essence' or whatever name you feel is right for you to define
this Higher Force."
The
Beginning
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Emile Coue was a pharmacist and psychotherapist born in
1857 in Nancy/France. He was one of the first pioneers in the
field of "positive thinking" and research on how our
thoughts influence our body and soul.
For
more info about Emile Coue, please visit The
Coue Association Circle
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The First Step
